Mortgaging My Soul, Once Again

So, Mike tonight asked me who "Rob" was.  I just blinked a few times and was like, "well, the only Rob I know is my ex-boss...why?".  *chuckles*  Apparently twice (not on the same night), while I was sleeping, I started screaming out Rob's name and, Mike swears he's telling the truth, I had my legs stuck up straight in the air (while sleeping, mind you), screaming out his name and grunting stuff like "harder, faster" etc etc, you get the picture.  I just had to laugh...I mean, really...my legs stuck up in the air while I'm sleeping?!  I was amused by it, to say the least.  Now, see, if the roles would have been reversed, I would have woken up Mike and taken advantage of him.  However, I think Mike was slightly...embarrassed and...maybe threatened...and he went out into the living room and went to sleep on the couch while I was having "my moment."  I asked Mike if he thought that I was sleeping with someone else...he said no.  He figured that it was because I haven't been getting enough sex for a 25 year old.  And...yet you continue to do nothing...ugh.  

On the same topic, Mike called his old counselor and semi-friend and he's going to start going to counseling for his sex issues...thank the gods.  For those that need to be caught up to speed, he's still freaked out from our STD fiasco over a year ago.  It pretty much killed his sex drive, he won't rim or let me fuck him (even with a condom), and now he has problems staying hard.  Of course, this guy is about 2 hours away...but agreed to see him on the weekends and such and will start when the guy gets back from his vacation.  So...hopefully he'll get himself better and our sex life can get back on course.  'Cause, I'm not sure how much more of this I can really take before I start sleeping with other people...the only thing that has prevented me from doing so this far is the fact that I don't want to contract anything again, which would either a) destroy Mike psychologically or b) kill/hurt him.  So...I'm trying to be a good boy, I really am.  It's just really hard on me and there's only so much that a guy can take before he breaks...

With dad unable to go to Nashville because of his blood clots, he offered me to go instead.  So, I talked to Mike and he won't be able to go due to him not being able to get the time off for work.  So, I spoke with Melissa and she's pretty confident that she'll be able to go with me.  I don't really wanna go by myself...not that I would mind it, per se.  I just want to...keep myself outa trouble, ya' know?  We're already at a weakened point with our sex life... I don't really wanna be baited with the sexual temptation...at least as of yet *ahem*.  We'll see how the counseling sessions go. hehe 

Tomorrow Travis is taking the day off so that he can spend his anniversary with Jess.  I don't believe that they have any plans to do anything, just spend "quality time" together.  I'll be taking Thursday off for my birthday, which will be sweet.  Then next week I'll be off from Wed until Monday of next week to go down to Nashville.  Sweet.  And this coming Thursday (my birthday) I'll be going with mom, dad, Travis, Jess, Mike, and Brandi to a nice sit down place in a town near here to celebrate me getting another year older.  And hopefully this weekend Travis, Jess, Mike, and I will go do something for my birthday.  Or they buy me something sparkly...either/both works for me *grins*.   

Dad gave me some DVDs that grandma and grandpa Sullivan gave them, which are copies of old films from when mom was a child and older.  He wanted me to make copies so that he can give them back to the grandparents.  I tried to do it this weekend with my laptop but it was having problems with the recording.  Like, I would let it go for hours and it was still copying the DVD so that it can burn it on another DVD.  I finially just stopped it and shook my head.  I hate this piece of shit Acer laptop.  I hope that it bursts into flames so that I can do my dance of glee around its flaming case.  Dance, I tell you...I will DANCE!  Of course, I keep on telling myself that I can wait until the new version of Windows Vista comes out so that I can buy my new laptop without having to upgrade to the new Windows version since upgrading Windows is, historically, a trying, if not daunting task.  Just half a year more, my precious...and then, I will set fire to you myself and do the dance of the Happy Drunk Monkeys to celebrate.  I just having decided what brand of laptop to get.  I'm leaning towards a Dell...they've improved the quality of their casing.  They used to have really cheap POS casing where the hinges of the monitor would bust really easily, but they've improved the design of them drastically.  I've also been thinking about getting a Lenovo laptop (the company that bought out the IBM brand).  I promised I would never get a IBM laptop 'cause, well, they looked like they kept the design from the 80's.  But, they look a wee better...still not as sweet as the other competitor's laptops, but it's manageable.  Actually, I kinda lied.  I just went on their website, and their thinkpad brand still looks like shit.  But their homeuser type brand looks a lil' more sporty.  hrrmm...Dell or HP is looking better and better.... All I have to say is "No More Acer...As Long As I Still Draw Breath...Never Ever EVER!"

And, with that, I'm going to watch another episode of Stargate:  Atlantis (the first season, we just got it on DVD), take Zoie outside, and then go to bed for the night...