Mortgaging My Soul, Once Again

Just a quick blurb

We got a call from Tammy tonight, Brenda just passed away.  She was in a coma since Monday.  Really sad to see her go, but it's a good thing due to her condition.  God speed love *smiles*.

Also Tammy asked me to go to Lima with her tomorrow and be a temporary signer for her.  Basically, in order to receive her SSI checks, she needs someone to co-sign her checks due to her being an alcoholic and ever so slightly crazy.  Brenda always did that for her.  So, since Brenda was incompasitated (well...now deceased), Tammy can't get her checks.  So, everyone else told her that she couldn't do it, so I'm going up there tomorrow with her to fill out some paperwork so that she can get her check so that I can co-sign it so that she can get her money.  I don't really get the whole purpose of doing this...I mean, I just don't see the logic of having someone co-sign the silly thing :p.  But, whatever the government wants :p.  Stupid people anyways.  And the only requirements for a temp co-signer is someone that has a driver's license and not have a felony.  Hot...I'm so glad that the government has such high standards *chuckles*.

But, anyways, I'm off to bed now.  I just figured that people would be interested in hearing about Breanda.

Vue 

This is gonna be a quick update as I'm taking Mike to the Dayton airport so that he can go to work.

Mike mentioned that he got a laptop.  I thought he was talking about a laptop from work to do work on.  I said "I know."  He then explained to me that he had to buy one because the one that he got from work *didn't* work and wasn't willing to buy him one, even though, where he's going, doesn't have any computers so he can't keep caught up.

So, lemme get this straight...you scream at him for not having his work done that's been backedup for 6 months 'cause you were so fucking stupid that you fired the last guy 6 months ago and never had a temp replacement, just let the work sit.  Then you hired all of these people, promised them the world, even bought them some company cars, including a $28,000 for a pickup truck for one of the guys.  Yet, he needs a tool for work, and you refused to by a 1,000 laptop.

I'm sorry, have you met my friend, reality?  I think not.

So, as Mike was telling me this, I told him to take it back and get his money back 'cause, if they're not willing to pay for it, then he shouldn't be buying such expensive tools by himself, especially since he doesn't have a lot of spare money to throw around.  He then started to fucking cry 'cause "he was feeling used."  Damned straight you're feeling used, you should feel that way.  Stupid fuckers, it makes me so fucking mad.  So, I told him to keep it and give work the receipt for the laptop (it was 600 bucks).   I told him to give them a month.  If they do not pay for it, I told him that I will wipe out the laptop for him so that the company information won't be accessable, I will restore it to its natural state, and then he will take it back to them and get a refund.  And *THEN* have him tell them that, if they're so fucking worried about him getting his job done that they *will* give him the tools that he needs.  Doesn't fucking matter if they have to take that fucking pickup truck back and sell it.  Hot fucking damn, he can get that new laptop and *ALSO* the temp assistant that he desperatly needs to get caught up by selling that pickup truck for this employee that doesn't even fucking need it!!!

Fuck I hate this company he's working for.  They're so fucking stupid it makes me wanna start jumping up and down, screaming like a possessed cocaine-crazed whore.

Good day Dear Sir...

I said good day! 

So, again, I was reading Yahoo News and there was this article about 100,000 people marching in Chicago in regards to immigrant rights.  I thought it sounded kinda odd 'cause immigrants have the same rights as natural born citizens so I opened it up.

They were talking about illegal immigrants and how there's a bill in the House/Senate that will plug several holes in regards to illegal immigrants and also enforce tougher border patrols and fences.

And you don't like this why?

Granted, most of the people marching against it is latino...and, while it doesn't say, prolly also illegal or come from a family where their parents are illegal.  *sighs*.

Stop being stupid bitches.  You shouldn't even *be* here illegally!  "oooohh, I need a better life for my family"...then get here legally.  "ohhh...I can't find good work in Mexico"...well people in the US need work too you lil' bitches.

Gods that makes me so angry.  And, seriously, they need to plug the hole in the system that any child, even if they're born by an illegal immigrant, will be a US Citizen if they are born on US soil.  So, basically a pregnant latino chica can put half of her body over the fence along the US/Mexico border and give birth and, when the baby hits the soil, hot damn, it's a US baby boy.  How much sense does that make?!  If the mother/father is illegal, then the kid should not be a US Citizen, period.

Ship them all back where they truely belong and, if they wanna come back, then have them apply like everyone else.  Who the hell do they think they are, thinking they are so damned special that they can live above the law.  Don't be lil' bitches people. 

I'm really hungry right now, it's 11:30...and, I prolly won't be getting fed anytime soon due to Travis getting his hair cut right at this moment.  So, lord only knows when I'll be getting myself some food :(

We got a call from Tammy yesterday, Brenda's vitals aren't looking well at all.  I was kind of kicking around the idea of going over there tonight.  I'll have to run it by Mike and see what he thinks.

Mike emailed me this morning and told me that last night I rolled on top of him and started to make out with him.  And, when he woke up he asked me what time it was...and, I then rolled over and went back to sleep *laughs*.  Apparently being asked a question like that was a turn off for me....

Bah...work has picked up again, have to get going and make some money! 

I've been worrying about Mike the past few days.

Work hasn't been too kind to him.  When he started his position there was no one to fill his position for 6 months prior, so he has an obscene amount of catchup work to do.  They are unwilling to higher a temp to help him with the backlog (it costs too much), they want him to do an amazing amount of overtime (which he doesn't get paid for, the wonders of being salary), they have him traveling for almost the entire month and a half, which means almost no work will be done during that period of time...

Today he had two people scream at him 'cause his work isn't done.  He's really getting upset by the whole thing.  I'm not really sure what I can do to help him, I really hate sitting here, watching him struggle.  He's now going in on Saturdays to make a small dent in what's going on.  I can feel his frustration when he gets home from work...which is getting later and later.

I feel partially guilty since I'm the one that talked him into leaving his last job and going into this one.  It just sounded perfect from what I heard...*sighs*.  Not that it's really my fault, I just can't help but feel that a small part of this is my fault.  *sighs again*.  I just wish that I could make it better for him, that's all.

I also find myself irritated that he would be traveling for that length of time.  I mean, I have no doubt that he'll be back several times during that 1.5 months, but I would like to see him occasionally :p.  And I know that he isn't happy with that arrangement.  They never ever told him that this amount of traveling would be involved or he never would have taken the job, at least i'm pretty sure of it.  But, now, what can you do *shrugs*

He told me tonight that, once it's been two years since his bankruptcy, he wants my help to start buying some properties and renting them out.  I told him that he has my blessing and what not but i'm not really sure how much help I can be to him.  But, we'll see if that all works out... 

Quick Update:

We got a call from Tammy today.  When Brenda was diagnosed about 2-3 weeks ago with cancer, they thought that she had 6 months to a year left.  Apparently they were wrong.  The doctors told Tammy today that she needed to start calling people, that she will be dead in the next few days.  So, needless to say, the "i'll probably go and visit her this weekend" has turned into a "I'll definatly go and visit her this weekend."  So, tomorrow after Mike gets off work we'll go and visit her, probably say our final goodbyes.

I just wish that it didn't have to end like this.....
 

So, our king size mattress was delivered this past Saturday.  However, we still have our old full size bed.  So, I think that it looks like we need to get our asses moving and get ourselves a new bedroom suite.  So, I may do that today since I'm leaving work early when Travis gets back from Ft Wayne or maybe we'll do that tomorrow.  We shall see.

Brenda has been moved to Vancrest Nursing Home in Van Wert a few days ago.  They have her heavily drugged, she doesn't really know what's going on.  Mike asked me yesterday if I wanted to go and visit her this weekend.  I told him that I would think about it and haven't really made a decision.  I know that I should go and that I probably will.  I just have reservations due to how she reacted last time that we were there, bawling, telling us that she wanted to die.  Just so much pain, unhappiness, and fear in her voice.  It was a lot to take in...I could barely do it.  But, it's also the right thing to do, so I will do it, like I said.  I just feel bad because I don't want to do it.  Scratch that, I'm scared of doing it...that's probably a better word for the feeling.  I just wish there was some form of hope that she can hang on to.  Well, I guess the only hope that she has right now is dieing....

I'm still trying to decide what to do for my summer vacation since Mike can't take a vacation and Melissa probably won't be able to as well.   If my friend Ron was online right now I would prolly check with him and see what he's doing this summer and maybe go with him.  hrrrmm.  Or, if he's not doing anything or willing to do anything, maybe I'll go to the 2006 Gay Summer Olympics that's being held in Chicago this year.  Since Chicago isn't that far from us (4 hours roughly), it may be one of the few changes that I'll have to go to the event since it moves around every year.  So, I guess that we'll see as far as that's concerned.

Zoie has her shot appointment next week, totally not looking forward to it.  How she's acted at the vets since her toe nail experience...I'm always scared that she's gonna bite someone.  But, I guess that they have experience with those types of dogs.  I just don't want her to cause injury to other people...that and it's a lil' embarrassing when she acts like a lil' bitch :p 

So, I've been reading on the Internet the past few days in regards to Mississippi looking at banning all abortions except for when the mother is in danger.  Now, as we all know, this goes against Roe Vs Wade that was decided by the US Supreme Court several decades ago.  But, what they're trying to do is to pass it, which will be quickly stopped as being unconstitutional, and will be fast tracked to the US Supreme Court so that they can listen, once again, to the debate on abortion.  Their thinking is that, with the Republican-heavy justices now, that they will be able to over-turn this decision.

 I actually have a lot of problems with this.  First and foremost is that they don't make any stipulations for rape or incest victims.  I mean, seriously, could you imagine being held down and raped by someone and then get impregnated by them.  Then being forced to have the child resulting from the forced coupling would cause some significant emotional/mental issues.  You wouldn't be able to deal with the rape and put it past you because of the growing child inside of you.  And, if you don't give up the kid, then you will raise them, being ever reminded that the kid was not born out of love or even a one-night fling, but being violated.  And, what's worse, what would stop the rapist from pulling you into court for parental custody?  Or, if you are a victim of incest, what would stop them from trying to get parental custody?  Sure, the courts will probably deny it, but they may give them partial rights, if nothing more then supervised visitations.

 But, even if they did allow rape/incest victims to get abortions, I don't feel that banning abortions would be a good idea.  How soon people forget that abortions used to be very illegal.  But, that didn't stop people from getting them.  A very large percentage of them died because either they used doctors that operated without licenses and didn't use steralized tools or they tried to do it themselves using clothes hangers and such, which caused massive amounts of internal bleeding and ended up killing themselves, along with the kid.

People that get so worked up over abortions, I understand what your point is.  It is life, no one really debates that.  However, to truely make abortions obsolete, you need to fix the underlying problem, not just cut people from it.  You need to fix society so that we don't use it for birth control and "non-essential."  Because, if you don't fix society, legal or not, people will still do it.