Mortgaging My Soul, Once Again

So, my feeling of apprehension was indeed correct about going to Grandma's yesterday...

When we got there and started to talk to everyone my Aunt Jen started going off about her son Cory and how dad didn't do anything to help him when he was troubled (like he still isn't troubled??) but he's helping out these strangers.  And she started throwing a fit about how Cory would skip school all the time and go over to my parents house (they would always leave the house unlocked because, well, Rockford is the safest place on the planet...).  And, while no one was there since mom and dad both worked and my brother and I actually *went* to school, he would sit there, watch tv, eat food, and also (i'm pretty sure) that he would also steal stuff.  So, needless to say, dad started to lock the house and told Aunt Jen that he's not allowed over at the house while no one is there and he'll call the cops if he's there at the property when no one was home.

Seriously...what type of help *could* have dad offered while he wasn't there?!?!  And, maybe you should stop blaming dad for how fucked up Cory ended up being when the blame can't fall on him.  Maybe it wasn't dad's job to raise Cory, maybe it was yours.  Sure, if Cory came to dad and wanted to talk to him about problems, dad would have at least listened.  But, if you're going to enter someone's home while you're *supposed* to be at school....what the fuck?  He's not his kid, get over it.  Also, keep in mind that this happened probably 10 years ago.  Why is this an issue now?  Why does everything have to revolve around you and your screwed up kids?  I ask this to myself, yet no answer.

Then my aunt went on saying that it's because of his freshman English teacher that screwed him up.  No, he didn't touch him innapropriatly or anything like that...he gave him a bad grade on his Greek Methology presentation that we had to do infront of the class (at least i do believe that was it, again, it's 10 years ago).  But, seriously...how much blame can you put on one fucking teacher.  I mean, I was *IN* his english class, and he never did anything, was mouthy to the teacher...what the hell did he expect?  Sure, the english teacher was an asshole and a perv towards the girls...but I don't see anything that he did to Cory that would have fucked him up.  And, please, he was fucked up before he even became a freshman.....You're so damned lame for blaming someone when really you should be blaming, at least partially, yourselves.

It honestly disgusted me how she went on and on about dad and how Cory was treated unfairly.  I felt sick to my stomach and I'm surprised that I could even tolerate it.  I was so angry when I left yesterday...*sighs*.  Just writing about it again just pisses me off to no end.  Period.

Other then that, nothing super spectacular happened today.  Mike will be flying instead of driving to Wisconsin next week for his job training, yea!  Whole week with the house by myself...not sure what i'm gonna do with myself *grins*  I'm sure I'll find someone or something to occupy my time with :)

I'm kinda worried about going over to Grandma's today over the whole dad and being over his Marsh Foundation kid thing.  I guess I just don't want it to be all about slamming dad...

And I'm also apprehensive about having our lil' family meeting with mom and dad next week as well.  I just don't want them to feel that we're all ganging up on them...and that we *are* doing this to help him out so that his relationship with his family doesn't go to crap here soon.  I just hope he understands that we are doing this because we do actually care, not to be lil' bastards....

*sigh*

So, I get a call from my dad when Mike and I were getting back from watching Harry Potter 4 (which, btw, kicked ass).  And, he just called me to tell me that he wasn't going to Thanksgiving at my Grandma's house.  And, here is his reasoning...

He "mentors" kids at the Marsh Foundation...which, basically is a place where kids are sent when they're super crazy.  Like, not mentally crazy...but, physically violent, rapists, etc.  And, *after* he told this kid that he can come, he called grandma to see if it's alright.  Grandma told him no because some people in the family do not want people from the Marsh Foundation around their kids.  So, instead of backing out of his plans with this kid, or even to do *both* events, he told Grandma today that he wasn't going to go because he had previous plans with this kid.  And that, he felt that since Cory (my cousin) brought some of his friends several years ago and that they were druggies, etc, that he should be allowed to as well.

Hot, I tell you.  Just hot.

First thought...why the fuck can't you go to grandma's, make an appearance, and then leave to do your thing with the damned kid.

Second thought...those "druggies" weren't convicted crazy kids that sexually molested people and were violent to other kids.  And, since dad won't/can't tell anyone what the kids do, the parents of small, impressionable kids can't be on the lookup for such things.  I mean, it's a family gathering where kids are running around, etc, and you don't have 24/7 lookout on some of the kids.

Third thought...Dad would always bitch when people would bring friends to family outings because "they weren't family."  So, why the fuck would this be different.  Personally, I feel along the same lines that friends shouldn't come to outings except if the friend doesn't have any family and want to attend Thanksgiving or something like that.  Or, with Narelle, she was there with me because she was staying with me for a few weeks.  That I can understand.  But, to basically push this kid on our family is really disgusting.  I'm actually really fucking sick of it.

So, I think that Travis, Jess, and I are going to have an intervention.  It'll be hot I do believe.  Travis is prolly gonna set something up next week so that we can go out to eat with mom and dad (not Brandi) and discuss what dad is doing and so that, at the very least, he can see why the people feel the way that they do.  Because, personally, I know that dad feels that he's doing the right thing to do.  But, you know what, you don't forsake family, ever.  To blow them off for a kid that could have raped and murdered someone...that really says a lot about your priorities, and it just pisses me off.

I just wanna scream right now he has me so rilled up.  It's so illogical and freaking retarded.  Sometimes I just feel that he needs slapped across the face and be shown that maybe there's another viewpoint of reality and other people's feelings before he goes off and does shit like this.

Well, at leat tomorrow at grandma's won't be boring...I'm sure there will be a lot of gossip to go around!

 

So, it's been a few days since I've posted.  It's been a mad house of things to do...I'm so glad that today and tomorrow is gonna be very, very low key.

Wed was Dan and Amy's wedding.  It was the first Catholic function I've ever been to.  It was pretty...but I was amazed on how the service went down.  Like, most of the people there are Catholic, and it was just this same tired ritual that they always do for every service, not just weddings.  And, everyone just looked so bored and depressed while doing it.  And, looking around the church, all depictions of Christ were of him being crucified, being in great pain, etc.  Yes people, mourn your faith, that's hot.  But, other then the church service that was very foreign to me, we all had a very good time.  And, the reception was a semi-dry reception, which is pretty much unheard of for Catholics.  But, I think that this was Catholics on a budget, so it's all good.  And, I mean semi-dry by that "there was alcohol there, but it was very very hard to find."  Like, the alcohol was in a seperate room, a part of the kitchen, in a refrigerator.  And, they only had beer and wine.  So, since I was driving home, I just decided not to partake in the alcoholic festivities and just stuff my face *grins*.

Thanksgiving...that was busy busy busy.  We went over to Mike's brother David house, never been there before.  But, there was a lot of fun.  I was a lot more comfortable because not the whole clan was there, just Mike and I, Dave and his 3 kids, and Mike's dad and stepmom.  So, we were there for a few hours, the Turkey kicked ass, it was so freaking moist.  And they had this pumpkin desert...*drools*.  It was pumpkin pie with white cake on top and then butter drizzled on it.  It seriously kicked some ass, we have some in the frig for later *yum*

Then we went and visited Mike's mother in the nursing home.  She was as crazy as ever.  When we were getting ready to leave she told me "You're family now, give me a kiss."  And, she wanted to kiss me on the lips.  I thought to myself, "What?!  I don't even kiss my own momma on the lips!"  But, i did it anyways :p.  Such a good lil' in-law I am, just give and give and give.

Then that evening we had to rush back to make it to my mom and dad's for Thanksgiving evening meal.  And, not much happened there, just normal everyday eating and stuffing our faces.

Friday we went day-after-Thanksgiving shopping.  It was a mad house this year!  I was functioning on 3 hours of sleep, I woke up at 3am to get to lima by 5...crazy crazy crazy.  However, we got some really good buys, and I got some new panties, so it's all good.  hehe.  It was just funny 'cause I had everyone bought for already, this was just a shopping trip for me, it was kinda nice :)

So, we got home around 12:30, and I went to bed around 1...got up at 4, screwed around until 6, got ready, and then travis and Jess picked me up at 7.  We were all going to meet Amanda and Graham from London in Ft Wayne at Joe's crab shack.  Amanda and Graham are from London area but Amanda was originally from Defiance, OH, which isn't far from here.  We met up on the internet on an MSN board and, while she was visiting her family for the holidays, we decided to meet up and hang out.  And, I was shocked on how Amanda was.  I kinda pictured her kinda reserved and such.  But, she is a wild child :)  Almost as wild as I am.  And, she just oozed sexual energy.  It was pretty hot :)  But, a picture of the four of us (minus Travis, who took the picture, and Mike, who was really sick yesterday, so he couldn't come) is posted on the blog for everyone to see that we were the hottest people there :)

So, that's pretty much a lowdown of what all went on the past few days :)  I'm just thankful that I can rest up during the next few days before going back to work on Monday!

Yes...it was me this time...bastards...

So, I went to take Zoie outside...and, I swear to god not one single thought was going through my head...I opened up the door, let Zoie outside, and she was sniffing around in the bushes by the corner of our house before I realized, "Hey...she doesn't have a leash on."  So, of course, when I made a move to grab Zoie, she started running around the house and she ran two blocks in Rockford before I ended up catching her.  Luckily someone had some trash bags outside and she was too busy sniffing them to notice me grabbing her.  And, I wanted to beat her, but I realized that it was my fault that she got out in the first place, can't really blame her.  However, she didn't get a treat :p

This week is gonna be ungodly busy.  Lemme break it down for ya':

Wednesday - Dan is finially getting married at 6pm in Findlay to Amy.  So, I have to leave work early to head over there, and that'll shoot wed completely.

Thursday (Thanksgiving) - Going over to Mike's family for lunch in Mansfield.  Then, afterwords we're buzzing over back home, grabbing Zoie, and going over to mom and dad's for supper.  Again, the whole day is shot.

Friday - Going shopping super early in the AM for after thanksgiving shopping, always a fun time.  Then I'm going back home for a few hours of napping, then going out with Amanda and Graham from England (originally from this area) and with Travis and Jess to Fort Wayne for Joe's Crabs and a night of drinking, smoking, and sleeping with strange men.  Bonus.

Saturday - I do believe there's nothing going on, but this week is so fucked up, I'm not exactly sure *laughs*

Sunday - Thanksgiving at Grandma and Grandpa's house.  Should only take a few hours

So, basically, my whole 4 day weekend is fucked :p.  I seriously need a weekend where we don't do anything :p

Ohh, and I'm also posting the long-awaited pics of the wedding on the blog as well.  I'm sure everyone is drooling with antisipation :)

So, we all had a good time in Columbus this weekend.  We got to hang out with Nikki and, for a few hours, Brandy, which is always a fun time.  On Saturday we went to Easton Shopping Mall and ate at the Cheesecake Factory and gorged ourselves on food and cheesecake.  Yum!  We then shopping for a wee bit, went back to the hotel and chilled, and then we went out to Tradewinds and drank a wee bit and was dancing.  This is the first time that I've been in Columbus since they've banned smoking in bars.  And, to be honest, it wasn't all that bad.  Sometimes the smoke did get ridiculous in there and I did smoke a lot less when we were there.  *shrugs*.  Then afterwords we went back to the hotel, i got some microwavable popcorn from the vending machine, had that in the room, and then we went to sleep.  Sunday we all went to the cafe (i can't think of the name, it caters to gays in the Short North section of town) and we had a fabulous meal.  I had french toast...it seriously kicked ass :)

Also, early Saturday morning (I went to bed at 2am...this happened at 5am) Mike woke me up by sucking me off.  And, seriously, that never, ever happens.... So, he started being really rough with me and demanding...I was in fucking HEAVEN!  So, I jerked off at 2am, I came after he fucked me at 5am, then when we got back to the hotel around 2pm he fucked me again.  So, yea, 3 times in 12 hours.  I was a wee bit soar...but pleased :)

This week is gonna be pretty busy.  Dan and Amy are getting married this Wednesday (day before thanksgiving :p ) at 6pm, so i'll have to leave work early for that.  Then, Friday is the day after Thanksgiving shopping, then that evening I think Travis, Jess, Amanda, Graham, Mike, and I are going out to Ft Wayne since Amanda and Graham will be back in the states from London.  And then Sunday we're doing Thanksgiving at grandma's.  And Mike was talking about, on actual Thanksgiving, going over to his parent's and taking them out to supper since he hasn't heard anything as far as thanksgiving plans for his family (i keep on asking him to call them to make sure they aren't doing anything, yet he won't...so bizarre...because he feels that they should call him first....)  But, then who am i?  That's just a shitload of running around for a holiday :p  I'm gonna be so damned tired :p  I will have to go back to work on Monday to rest!

Travis, Jess, Mike and I went to Pizza Slut last night for supper and we also went to Walmart to pick up Dan and Amy's wedding gift.  Their wedding is going to be next weekend...this month has been so damned busy!!  Two weddings and a weekend outing in Columbus.  Pretty busy for us :)  So, I didn't eat all of my personal pan supreme pizza, so hence why I had that for lunch...hence the title of this blog post :)

And, it's almost 12...and I'm so damned bored I'm about ready to off myself.  And, kirby has been here for about an hour...don't really need to go into that :p

I'm really hoping that all goes well with the Dr with Travis and Jess.  Hopefully it'll be a simple procedure or, in a fantasy world, be fixed by medication.  I just know how much Jess is stressing over the situation, I wish that I could make her feel more at ease :(

Well, I'm going shopping with Jess tomorrow in Lima to spend some bling...officially for Christmas...unnoficially...well, hopefully we'll at least get some things for christmas or Jessica may get beaten *grins*

So, I got this thing in the mail with a 20% off shopping pass at Macy's starting tomorrow and ending Saturday.  It also has a 50% off Fine Jewelry shopping pass.  I mean, seriously kicks ass.  I should love Travis to see if he'll let Jess and I go shopping on Friday...and, if Jess helps in the convincing/loving, I'll let her spend her money on some fine jewelry.  Maybe, just maybe if she loves.  We shall see.  And, as an added bonus, I'll go to that Godiva store in Columbus this weekend and pick her up some chocolatey sweets.  *hint hint Jess*

The meeting with the lawyer this evening was really beneficial.  We went over a lot of ground work, she answered a bunch of our questions in regards to adding me to the deed of the house.  It will seriously help us out.  We were talking with her and, even if he willed the house to me, his family could possibly contest that I had no right to the home and they could possibly take it.  Now, I don't ever see his family doing such a thing, they are good people.  However, it's always good to ahve that extra protection.  She also suggested a cross-referenced will (or something like that).  So that, if one of us dies, the other person gets everything.  However, she questioned us if both of us die, what happens with our assets (like we have any hehe), property, etc.  Mike and I looked at eachother and we just both knew that our "belongings" were pretty much purchased together, no real sentimental stuff.  So, we told her that we would want all of our stuff auctioned, the property sold, and then just split the money remaining in half and then divide it equally between our family.  Meaning that my share would go to mom/dad, travis/jess, and Brandi.  However, until Brandi gets her shit straightened up, I put that she would only get 200 dollars.  Whatever's left from the 200, my amount would be split equally between mom/dad and travis/jess.  And, pretty much the same thing with Mike's family.  It just seemed it would be less messy that way.  We didn't want any of our family fighting over anything, so to make things clean cut, we decided to do that.  Also she suggested that, in the case that we ever get seperated, we write up an agreement between the both of us saying who gets the house and the posessions, etc, since the home will be in both of our names.  Mike and I were talking about it in the car and he said that if we ever seperated, he would leave everything, including the posessions of the house, to me, no questions asked.  And, to tell you the truth, I wasn't really shocked by what he said.  He always said that it was "my house" and that he bought it for me.  So, I think that we'll write something out int he next few days, sign it and have Trav or Jess noterize it, and be done with it.  However, we have to get permission from the bank as far as adding me to the house.  So, we'll have to call the mortgage company tomorrow to get me added.  I guess they'll have to do a credit check on me and also I'll have to "apply" for it.  Sounds like a bunch of work, but whatever :p

My computer hasn't shut off since I got it back from Acers.  So, I think we have everything squared away :).  The fan isn't running constantly, so I think that we're all good to go on this end, at least for now :p

I'm getting really psyched in regards to Columbus this weekend.  Will be really good to get outa the house for awhile and hang out with Nikki and Brandy and Melissa for a spell.  And, hopefully the liquor will be flowing *grins*

There was a lot of wind and tornado watches in our area.  Hopefully there isn't any big claims tomorrow when I get to work :p.  That will be a real kick in the nuts.

 

Yes, long time no love from me.  Been a busy weekend and was pretty tired today so no blogging for me :)

So, Friday I spent a large part of the day with Jessica Christmas shopping.  I think that I have pretty much everyone done or I definatly know what I'm getting them and just "spreading out the love" as far as money is concerned :)  So, needless to say, it's going a lot better then what it was the past few years.  I was actually able to give people christmas ideas for Mike, which shocked the hell outa me...

I've been talking to my ex Denny on IM just now.  He moved up to Indiana a few years ago to try to "start things" over with me.  And, I haven't even seen him in real life for about a year, even though we stay in regular contact over IM.  And...he just told me that he has a job interview for a company in North Carolina.  I'm happy for him...but, there's also a certain part of me that wishes him not to go.  I mean, he's my first love and everything.  However, it would never work out between us, we've tried multiple times.  I guess it's just the selfish part of me that's playing out...I hope that he gets what will make him most happy, I really do.

So, Saturday I went with Melissa to her law friend's wedding.  And, I think that I had more fun then she did *laughs*.  We got to the church...holy shit.  I guestimated that the church was 2-3 million dollars, just looking at it.  It looked more like a brick castle, lots of glass, big yard...very old (at least it had the appearance of being old) yet very well maintained.  We could tell that we were walking into some money *winks*.  So, we got into the church...omg, georgous.  There were (from my understanding) several chapels in the church, we went into the one upstairs.  And, the chapel itself was very small (I'm guessing about a sitting capacity of 200), but very ornate.  Lots of wood (even the super uncomfy but pretty seats :p  )  There was a harpist playing in the front of the church instead of the piped in CD music that most people use, very very kick ass.  And, the programs were amazing.  I mean, these people really didn't spare any expense.  I'll have to bring the programs and the few photos I took to show how pretty it was.  I"ll have to attach them to the blog here in the next few days.  What I really liked is that the program had this quote from Mother Teresa in regards to love and also there was a statement from the bride and groom about each of the bridesmaids/groomsmen.  I thought that was really sweet, some of them were real tear jerkers.

So, the wedding itself was very personalized, not the type of "blah blah blah insert name here blah blah" type of wedding.  Very nice.  So, afterwords we were walking down the stairs and I was overpowered by chocolate.  Translate overpowered by chocolate into I got hard by the intense smell of it.  So, we got into this central hallway and....*pees himself*...this four tier...about 6 foot tall chocolate fondu fountain was there.  I wept, seriously... And there were marshmelows, vanila crisp wafers, strawberries, pretty much anything you can do with chocolate, it was there.  I was crying while shoving my face full of chocolate delights.  And then...I discovered the full open free bar.  It was then that I found my salvation in my Lord...Whiskey.  *ahem*.  So, that night I had 6 whiskey sours.  I was pretty gone *chuckles*.

So, the food was fantastic (chicken, mashed potatos that you would die for, green beans with almonds) and they had cake...but, with all the chocolate?  didn't really eat any cake.

And, I danced quite a bit with all of these strange people that loved me and my drunk self.  And, I was sititng by this Asian grrl that was a co-worker of the bride.  And, as I got more drunk, the more I wanted to ask her to say "Me So Horny, Love you Long Time." 

However....even I know that was pretty innapropriate...especially at a fancy wedding.

Ohhh, and did i mention that the centerpieces at the reception had real fruit in it?  Like, flowers, apples, pears...I was amazed by that.

Ohhhh...and did i mention that there was free booze?

Praise the Lord :)

 

So, I'm waiting for Travis and Jess to finish wanking in a cup to feed me *smiles*.  Jess is right, wanking in a cup is funny.  What's more funny is that they have to give it to mom....  So, yea, they should be here any minute to feed me.  YEA!!!!

But, Mike talked it over with Nathan yesterday and, more then likely, Mike will want to go with the new job.  More then likely they'll offer him 850 a week, the benfits are comperable to what he has now, a 401K (which they don't have now), and also year end bonuses.  So, I think that it's a better move.  Plus, they're looking for ohio based health insurance (and prolly property insurance). So, I gave Mike my card to give to Nathon to love me and Travis.

Yea, they're here with the fooddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!